College

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! Hello there. It seems that the intent of college recruiters is to constantly pester you until you have no more brain left to choose anything other than the college they represent! Why is this college business so difficult?? Doesn't America want to educate its children so that we may rise up and take the reins from the older generation, thus continuing the constant process of repair and perfection of the nation? Maybe this socialistic tendency has already spread to higher education. I mean...the perfect way to equalize and control the masses is by ignorance, right? "Why don't we make everyone equally stupid so that we can control the level of participation and the rate that information spreads!" Genius...absolutely genius. Well, it's working. It's a good thing I have God to control my future, because I sure would make a complete mess of things (and have...many times). Trusting Him can be so difficult, though it shouldn't be, but I suppose this lesson will serve me for the rest of my life, eh? Surely there will be trial MUCH larger than figuring out how to go to college. There are going to be situations that require a deeper patience and reliance on God in my life than waiting to see how God provides...especially if I am going to go into counseling.

One thing that god has shown me these past few months is that, despite all of the training and knowledge I have been given in my Christian school and church all of my life, the choice to follow Him really is mine. Even though I have been given the answers to many of life's big questions, satan constantly bombards me with doubts and seemingly hopeless situations. We have been warned since we were little about satan's darts, his tricks, and the attitudes he tempts us to have with little stories and examples that oversimplify it. We are made to think that serving God and serving self are black and white, when in reality, they are often hard to discern unless you are constantly walking with God and trusting Him to "direct thy paths". It saddens me to think that my dearest friends from high school can fall so quickly. What a heartache to know that nothing you can do or say will reach their hardened and blind hearts! Maybe it's not the whole "college" thing after all. Maybe the fact that we are leaving our homes and beginning to train for a life completely our own that causes us to think more seriously about why we do what we do every day. Why do I hold the door for older people? Why don't I go to movie theaters? What rule is there that says I can't flirt with every guy I see? Why are drugs wrong? Wow...I think I have completely bunny-trailed off my topic. Oh well! I guess that's what happens on SPRING BREAK!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!! Have an awesome day!

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